Well I guess it's been awhile... The updates are:
1. I am staying with the boyfriend this summer
2. I will have a paying legal internship that focuses on my favorite class right now
3. My grandma is successfully in a nursing home that focuses on her disease
4. I am most likely going to be on Shakeology next month
I mean, I can't say I'm not happy. I am. But I am so hard on myself that I'm kicking myself for only studying 4-5 hours a day. Usually I pull 7-8 hour days, but this time around I just couldn't do it, and I feel like now I really need to. I can so make dean's list this semester, but I am so burned out from the stress that I cause myself that I'm worried I won't be able to.
I'm extremely proud of myself though. I did not wait on things like I normally do, I got involved with my friends at school this semester (even though that was an internal challenge... it's almost harder to be social after withdrawing for a bit than just working through it to begin with...). I haven't let people take my happiness, and I have been vocal. I think some relationships I have are still in repair but I know that if people are my friends, then the true ones will work it out with me in due time. I'm not going to force myself or try too hard anymore. I'm satisfied where I'm at in life and those who want to join are invited to.
Joe and I are back to where we needed to be. IT IS AWESOME. He took me out on dates this break, and we saw movies. We hung out with our friends in town... We don't bicker all the time. It's amazing. I think we are just so excited to be a normal couple this summer! lol
Murphy will not leave my side. He is obsessed with me and I love it.
Having this interview today, I truly feel motivated again. I feel like I am back on track, and that my resume will be where it needs to be when I graduate. I love that I am appreciated and that my hard work is noticed. I definitely need to work on my stress and nerves; my first interview was painfully awkward. However, I am also really young. I tend to forget that I am a lot younger than the "average student," because of my awful toils living with someone younger than myself last year. I assume I'm the average age but I always forget the first year average age was 2 years older than I was when I started... crazy.
I went to a Democratic Women's club with gram last night. She was adorable. She told everyone she hopes I'll be her future granddaughter in law. I thought that was really sweet. She also helped me find this job. She's someone I really look up to and I know she's grooming me for bigger things.
I am going to try to get on board with shakeology but it's so expensive. I might just make a blended shake full of good shit once a week and work my way up to once a day for starters. I hate that I am the only one on this lousy budget in all realms of my life outside of law school. I don't think people get it all the time, and that's okay, but it makes me bitter sometimes. There are so many things I want to do! I am finally feeling the law school sacrifice.
I hope Joe gets into school. He really wants to move on to the next point in his career, and I can't imagine not being able to yet. I'm trying to be really excited for him and more understanding.
I chopped some of my hair off, and it feels a lot lighter. I like it! But I want it to grown again. I am trying not to dye it either! I really want a couple of highlights... badly.
Anyway, I'm rambling but I figured I would give this blog some TLC because I haven't been <3 wish me luck today bloggies!
Change will not come if we wait for some other person or some other time. We are the ones we've been waiting for. We are the change that we seek. ~Barack Obama
